EVERYONE OUT THERE WILL HAVE A BRILLIANT CHRISTMAS!
But then again, Christmas is over, so, Happy Boxing Day!
But we should all take a moment to mourn for all the victims who lost their lives to the Tsunami last year this day, one minute's silence please.
Sigh. Exactly twenty days later and the time now is six thirty p.m. (what exactly does p.m. stand for? Wait let me go check! Okay here we go, Bessie has a book titled 'The New First Aid In English, Revised' and it used to be my bible. Nah joking I'm not neurotic. Okay, p.m. is the abbreviation of post meridiem and it means after noon. Which naturally brings us to the abbreviation, a.m., which stands for ante meridiem and that means before noon. Wow this book IS cool!)
Christmas Eve was spent with the family in the afternoon, and then with partial 9P in the evening through night and till the next afternoon. Well I was feeling a little out of sorts but overall it was okay. 9P went to Suntec City for Crystal Jade originally, but some of them were saying that it was weird when we sat in the restaurant looking like Dabing in Deuce Bigalow, European Gigolo (read: out of place) and so we ended up eating Carl's Jr. and making lame jokes out of stuff. We played with this scary, pain inducing but fun shark toy that Jas gave me as a present among a very very cute JAY CHOU kiap kiap from taiwan and this letter pad with pictures of shit on the pages, which I thought was very apt! Thankyousoverymuch skippy! :) We also read the wonderful and cute Christmas cards from Kesi and tried to figure how to work the gumball machine from dg and tofu! Yep it was great fun and when dt joined us with her league of polyshrink in tow it was so so amazing! haha! (Of course melmel's marsmellows will come in later!)
We then proceeded to the Esplanade and there I saw WJW! It was quite a surprise indeed and we wished each other a merry christmas and went our separate ways. Cai called to say that she might join us, that she won't be joining us, that she will come find us and that ultimately she won't be coming for countdown with us. (And later on the bus tofu was saying that if she were cai she would not want to go to Esplanade all the way from Orchard and I decided that I would not too especially since the roads would be bloody jammed and the trains, bloody packed.) Countdown at the Esplanade was rather mellow. Most of the time we were speculating if those disgusting foam from disgusting spray cans would come our way the moment the clock struck twelve and everybody holding a spray can assumed that there was too much goodwill in the air for innocent bystanders to attempt to grab those disgusting spray cans out of their hands and throw them into the sea or stomp on them violently, which would be what I would have done if a stream of foam had landed on any of 9P or me. Luckily, they were all intelligent enough not to attempt to shoot any foam on us and we were intelligent enough to get out of the way. Oh and we prank-called people and stuff and it was all quite fun thinking of what to say but after the call was made it didn't seem so fun anymore because one of them called the police and had us arrested. Nah just kidding, we didn't get arrested, we got off with a police warning. Nah, that's not true nothing happened to us because I think the victims did not understand what we were trying to say. Oh well. So much for the planning.
After that we took 181M to skipppppppppy's house for the stayover! Yes and it was only skippy, mel, tofu and me. Ah well, here's where the wonderful marshmellows melmel bought for me comes in! YAY! We ate them on the bus and they were heavenly. :) We passed Ministry Of Sound and there was a long long long queue outside. Terrible. And to think Carolyn had thought of making a booking beforehand. Brilliant move. Okay anyway the bus stopped at the non-existent bus stop opposite Segar LRT station and they were being lame about it being some ghostly bus stop that only appeared when the bus approached at midnight blabla.. But it was only an invisible bus stop.
At skippy's house Toffee and Honey were barking, like they always do when we drop by and in that very night I stepped on dog urine for the first time in my life, but I also carried Toffee for the first time in my life. There is absolutely nothing wrong with carrying Toffee, he's cute, soft, cuddly and friendly. Save for the fact that he loves to grab hold to any part of any friend of skippy and do wrong things to those parts, which will not be elaborated. But he is still adorable after all, and so is Honey, under that extremely tough exterior he put on. :)
At skippy's house we watched tellyvision and well, slept. I know, I fell asleep while the telly was on but I couldn't help it. We were supposed to have stayed up to talk. But I fell asleep. :(
In the morning jas' sister let in the dogs on us. Honey ran around in a frenzy and Toffee jumped up skippy's bed. I vaguely remember skippy's sister chasing Honey, trying to catch him and she succeeded and I went back to sleep. I had a dream about going back to school without completing my History Assignment and that every single one of my classmates had bags of presents to give out to everone else in class and that I had not brought a single gift. It was so weird I swear, even Kularesh had a huge bag of presents to hand out and I strongly believe that that would not happen in real life.
We went to the revamped BP plaza with Cafe Cartel and had wanted to eat at Cartel but the queue was so long that we decided to eat at Yoshinoya's instead. Yoshinoya's good too because they serve good food at a good price. And the staff there shouting something that sounds like "mumblemumbleMASE!" was funny and later I asked tofu and she said that it was supposed to be something the likes of "Irasaimase!" and it meant "welcome, thank you for patronising us and we sincerely hope that you will enjoy your meal with us here at __insert restaurant name__" Well no, actually it only means "Huan Ying Guang Ling" and that is something like "Welcome" that's all.
After that it was home sweet home and I slept when I got home and Phillip brought us for some Japanese steamboat at IMM (I have always wondered what 'IMM' stands for) at night and I saw somebody who had small eyes who reminded me of a certain someone but on the second look I realised it wasn't so at all. When we got home Joe was there and he had bought an ice cream cake for Carolyn as it was her birthday and we played with dry ice and it was so cool! (pun intended but okay that's not funny) Following that the four of them packed themselves into Carolyn's room for a mahjong session. I was happily watching tellyvision when suddenly Bessie called me into the room and told me to get Carolyn a cup of water with a vitamin C effervescent in it. I was so cross that they were treating me like a maid and that considering that our house isn't very big, she could have gotten that cup of water with the effervescent tablet in it by herself but she had refused to do so. And I stayed cross the whole night and could not enjoy the rest of "Christmas Carol: A Musical" that I had been watching on tellyvision because they had treated me like a maid and the thought that was repeating itself in my mind was that "Gambling is disgusting I shall never ever touch a mahjong tile forever!"
But then again if I wasn't the one touching those mahjong tiles I'd probably be the one serving the glasses of water with vitamin C effervescent tablets in them so the next time Joe comes around for some mahjong session I'd be the first one in the game.
Happy Christmas everybody!
Monday, December 26, 2005
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Love is a Many-Splendoured Thing
Some days it's rainy, some days it's sunny.
Some days it's neither here nor there, and these are the days Vanessa do not like. It's messes up every thing.
Actually every day is a mess for Vanessa during this holiday.
While Phillip, Bessie and Carolyn are off to work, guess who stays at home to look after the house? (Now Vanessa sounds like a house dog.)
But no, she isn't a house dog, for which house dog gets to watch tellyvision, listen to music, play Solitaire/Mindsweeper/FreeCell/Hearts/PinBall on the computer, play Xbox, answer all of Phillip's and Bessie's calls (Carolyn does not call Vanessa because honestly, it is unnecessary), watch more tellyvision and fix lunch? Of course the above can be highly detrimental to Vanessa's social life, but she is lucky she does not have to do them on a daily basis.
Just the other day, Vanessa met up with Four of them to buy Carine's jeans at Bugis Street. And the Five of them had a wonderful time sitting outside the National Library telling stories. And it was most enjoyable indeed.
(And at this point in time, Vanessa is thinking that maybe being in a relationship should be a happy thing for two people, and not just one, because one happy person in a two-people thing is wrong. And also, living for the moment is important too, because one never knows what will happen tomorrow and hanging on to something that is dead is wrong too. BUT Vanessa knows that thinking this way has huge consequences and definitely she does not want the Two of them to get hurt in any way so you can forget about what Vanessa has said and carry on in the present situation until you really cannot take it and then it's goodbye.)
At the end of the day Vanessa had a bus ride home, thinking and thinking. There was a cockroach in the bus, together with a driver and a few passengers who all got off at this particular stop, leaving the driver, Vanessa and the cockroach on the bus. But it was calming that way, albeit more so without the cockroach, and Vanessa thinks that buses are comfortable transportation, especially at night.
And maybe Vanessa will go on a bus ride one of these days to test the new bus route that had just been implemented at the bus stop below. It is a route to Bishan and it is cool because it means that Vanessa will now have direct buses to Bishan, Boon Lay, BukitBatok, Choa Chu Kang, Clementi, Harbourfront, Jurong East, Woodlands, which is pretty much considering that the middle parts of the routes have not been added in the list. Which is why Vanessa likes taking buses. :)
And just yesterday Vanessa went on a photography trip with Two of them and it was great fun and she enjoyed herself very much. She laughed alot on the trip and it was a great day out.
On Sunday Vanessa had wanted to go to the beach with all Eight of them, but one of them had work to do although she had wanted to go on that day itself but could not because it was cancelled, one of them had a gathering with her class to visit a teacher, one of them had work, one of them could not go because her mother would not allow her to and she had to go to the optometrist, one of them had an eye infection but she did not pull out but Vanessa guessed that it would have affected her somehow like she could not play in the water, one of them could not play in the water because her mother did not allow her to and in the end Vanessa cancelled the outing because it was rather pointless as it was supposed to be a Nine People thing.
Vanessa has a friend called Priscillia and she is this small girl who is so cute that Vanessa often feels like pinching her cheeks! (ha ha nah that is a joke because it would be pretty psychotic.) The two of them are classmates and Priscillia has made Vanessa laugh many times. :)
And then there's Rachel. Well there is really nothing much that Vanessa can say about Rachel except that she is absolutely retarded. They are classmates too and they went to the World Cyber Games together, for Rachel it was to ogle, for Vanessa, she had sincerely wanted to check out the games. (ha ha.)
And Vanessa has to thank Anita for always roping her in for any job openings there was in the newspaper and here's many thanks to you Anita! :)
TIM BURTON IS BRILLIANT.
JOHNNY DEPP EVEN MORE SO!
Vanessa simply loves Johnny Depp's acting. That Utterly Brilliant Man deserves to be made an icon, together with Tim Burton of course.
Some days it's neither here nor there, and these are the days Vanessa do not like. It's messes up every thing.
Actually every day is a mess for Vanessa during this holiday.
While Phillip, Bessie and Carolyn are off to work, guess who stays at home to look after the house? (Now Vanessa sounds like a house dog.)
But no, she isn't a house dog, for which house dog gets to watch tellyvision, listen to music, play Solitaire/Mindsweeper/FreeCell/Hearts/PinBall on the computer, play Xbox, answer all of Phillip's and Bessie's calls (Carolyn does not call Vanessa because honestly, it is unnecessary), watch more tellyvision and fix lunch? Of course the above can be highly detrimental to Vanessa's social life, but she is lucky she does not have to do them on a daily basis.
Just the other day, Vanessa met up with Four of them to buy Carine's jeans at Bugis Street. And the Five of them had a wonderful time sitting outside the National Library telling stories. And it was most enjoyable indeed.
(And at this point in time, Vanessa is thinking that maybe being in a relationship should be a happy thing for two people, and not just one, because one happy person in a two-people thing is wrong. And also, living for the moment is important too, because one never knows what will happen tomorrow and hanging on to something that is dead is wrong too. BUT Vanessa knows that thinking this way has huge consequences and definitely she does not want the Two of them to get hurt in any way so you can forget about what Vanessa has said and carry on in the present situation until you really cannot take it and then it's goodbye.)
At the end of the day Vanessa had a bus ride home, thinking and thinking. There was a cockroach in the bus, together with a driver and a few passengers who all got off at this particular stop, leaving the driver, Vanessa and the cockroach on the bus. But it was calming that way, albeit more so without the cockroach, and Vanessa thinks that buses are comfortable transportation, especially at night.
And maybe Vanessa will go on a bus ride one of these days to test the new bus route that had just been implemented at the bus stop below. It is a route to Bishan and it is cool because it means that Vanessa will now have direct buses to Bishan, Boon Lay, BukitBatok, Choa Chu Kang, Clementi, Harbourfront, Jurong East, Woodlands, which is pretty much considering that the middle parts of the routes have not been added in the list. Which is why Vanessa likes taking buses. :)
And just yesterday Vanessa went on a photography trip with Two of them and it was great fun and she enjoyed herself very much. She laughed alot on the trip and it was a great day out.
On Sunday Vanessa had wanted to go to the beach with all Eight of them, but one of them had work to do although she had wanted to go on that day itself but could not because it was cancelled, one of them had a gathering with her class to visit a teacher, one of them had work, one of them could not go because her mother would not allow her to and she had to go to the optometrist, one of them had an eye infection but she did not pull out but Vanessa guessed that it would have affected her somehow like she could not play in the water, one of them could not play in the water because her mother did not allow her to and in the end Vanessa cancelled the outing because it was rather pointless as it was supposed to be a Nine People thing.
Vanessa has a friend called Priscillia and she is this small girl who is so cute that Vanessa often feels like pinching her cheeks! (ha ha nah that is a joke because it would be pretty psychotic.) The two of them are classmates and Priscillia has made Vanessa laugh many times. :)
And then there's Rachel. Well there is really nothing much that Vanessa can say about Rachel except that she is absolutely retarded. They are classmates too and they went to the World Cyber Games together, for Rachel it was to ogle, for Vanessa, she had sincerely wanted to check out the games. (ha ha.)
And Vanessa has to thank Anita for always roping her in for any job openings there was in the newspaper and here's many thanks to you Anita! :)
TIM BURTON IS BRILLIANT.
JOHNNY DEPP EVEN MORE SO!
Vanessa simply loves Johnny Depp's acting. That Utterly Brilliant Man deserves to be made an icon, together with Tim Burton of course.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Godspeed.
It's about ten thirty in the morning right now. Here I am sitting in front of the computer, about to update about my escapade from Chomel.
I've just been to the work place. It wasn't cold, dark and claustrophobic as I had expected, on the contrary, it was rather noisy, brightly lit and spacious indeed. Yes, and I was really hesitant about working at that place and I wasn't sure why I was feeling that way. But yes, when the woman gave me the application form to fill up I started writing my name, marital status, race, nationality and then I started freaking out. Well, she said that I had to work until mid-december and that there was no way I could back out before that, and she was speaking in a loud, almost screechy voice. I dunno. And then I removed the application form from the clipboard and took flight before anyone could say "I'm a Chomel employee, may I help you?". I guess I chickened. It's like as if commitment doesn't exist in my values as a person, but it isn't like I have many in the first place. As far as I can remember, it has always been such that I can't commit myself to doing something; same with studies, same with ideals and it is always the same with some interests even.
I remember the time in Secondary One, when I wanted to learn to play the "di zi", (well that's the kind of flute they use in the Chinese Orchestra by the way) and my mom bought one for me, I fiddled with it for nearly a month and it's been lying await in the cupboard for a better owner ever since.
And to think that I often tell myself to go ahead with any decision that I make and not regret it. What an irony.
Regret. Regret. Regret.
(For those who play Halo 2, I think the Prophet of Regret is a dumb name.)
And I really feel as though I have let Sam down. Once again, my greatest apologies.
For now, I guess I'll have to wait for Carolyn to get back to me about the job at Coffeebean and The Tea Leaf. Well I always thought the name was cute. But of course I still wish that the Night Safari would hire me. Or maybe I should just go and peddle drugs. Nah, I'd probably take them and end up in rehab.
I've just been to the work place. It wasn't cold, dark and claustrophobic as I had expected, on the contrary, it was rather noisy, brightly lit and spacious indeed. Yes, and I was really hesitant about working at that place and I wasn't sure why I was feeling that way. But yes, when the woman gave me the application form to fill up I started writing my name, marital status, race, nationality and then I started freaking out. Well, she said that I had to work until mid-december and that there was no way I could back out before that, and she was speaking in a loud, almost screechy voice. I dunno. And then I removed the application form from the clipboard and took flight before anyone could say "I'm a Chomel employee, may I help you?". I guess I chickened. It's like as if commitment doesn't exist in my values as a person, but it isn't like I have many in the first place. As far as I can remember, it has always been such that I can't commit myself to doing something; same with studies, same with ideals and it is always the same with some interests even.
I remember the time in Secondary One, when I wanted to learn to play the "di zi", (well that's the kind of flute they use in the Chinese Orchestra by the way) and my mom bought one for me, I fiddled with it for nearly a month and it's been lying await in the cupboard for a better owner ever since.
And to think that I often tell myself to go ahead with any decision that I make and not regret it. What an irony.
Regret. Regret. Regret.
(For those who play Halo 2, I think the Prophet of Regret is a dumb name.)
And I really feel as though I have let Sam down. Once again, my greatest apologies.
For now, I guess I'll have to wait for Carolyn to get back to me about the job at Coffeebean and The Tea Leaf. Well I always thought the name was cute. But of course I still wish that the Night Safari would hire me. Or maybe I should just go and peddle drugs. Nah, I'd probably take them and end up in rehab.
Ah, My Love.
I swear Jay Chou is the hottest being that ever graced the Earth with divine feet. Like seriously, what wouldn't I give for a just a tiny chip of his toenail.
Yay, Long Live Jay Chou the King, the Cutest One, the Greatly Endeared One, the Most Kind, Gracious and Intelligent One etc...
It's late and I'm quite sleepy. Sam found work for me as a packer/tagger for Chomel and I start tomorrow(today, technically). Seeing that the Night Safari people have left me out of their "possible employees" list, I have decided that I shall stick around as a packer/tagger before the Night Safari people realise their horrendous mistake and justify it by calling me up for an interview. After which I'd leave Chomel to grapple with their loss of the best packer/tagger they'd ever seen by quitting them and leaving poor Sam all alone in the cold dark claustrophobic room packing/tagging like never before.
No but seriously I really hope the Night Safari people call me soon and save me from the cold dark claustrophobic room in which the future shines bright for me as a packer/tagger and swish me away to a place where people pay twenty five bucks to watch sleeping animals. But well at least it's open air out there, unlike the cold dark claustrophobic room.
But actually I've not started work as yet and I haven't even been to the workplace so I'm not realy sure if it's cold, dark and claustrophobic. Aha. So there you go, tells you how much I want to work at the Night Safari such that any other job I'm offered seems so inconsequential and lousy. Gah.
Well I'd really like to work for the Night Safari! Who knows I might have the chance to train the lions to jump out at the tram when it passes by and bite on to the railings with their teeth. But wait are there lions at the safari? Or maybe I'd have the chance to train the bears to jump out at the tram when it passes by and bite on to the railings with their teeth. I know! There are deer! I've seen them before! So perhaps I'd have the chance to train the deer to jump out at the tram when it passes by and bite on to the railings with their teeth and maybe scare the people in the tram with grass essence dripping from their teeth. Yes, that would be a pleasant experience for the visitors to the Night Safari. So, I say, I really should work at the Night Safari. Sigh.
And Jielun totally rocks. I can't think of any better way to put it. Ah well.
He is my love.
And *drumroll please*... introducing... NATHANIEL! He's a friend of mine from Canoeing days. He's this really happy person! =) And since Nathaniel's been introduced, I find it difficult not to introduce another friend of mine.
And *drumroll please*... introducing... ANITA! She's a friend of mine from class. She's this really crappy person! ha ha!
See Nathaniel, I mentioned you! And you too Anita! =) And I'm really glad to have you both as my friends. Yay!
And of course I'm glad to have other wonderful people as my friends, but if I were to mention all of them and do a short write-up on each one, I think I might just get fired by Chomel for not turning up on the first day of work because it would take all night and all of the next day. Well it's not that I have thaaaaaaaat many friends, but I think each of them are like so wonderful and so so so so so special that.. that.. that I'm at a loss for words and sigh, I really love them. Love you all guys! <3
Speaking of friends I just went out with Evelyn, Jiawen and Bryan and I thought the entire outing was such a hilarious affair. Yes, that was definitely enjoyable. =)
But for now I've got to get some sleep, because I've got to gear up for work in the cold dark claustrophobic room which awaits me in approximately seven and a half hour's time. Okay, that's it for now!
Yay, Long Live Jay Chou the King, the Cutest One, the Greatly Endeared One, the Most Kind, Gracious and Intelligent One etc...
It's late and I'm quite sleepy. Sam found work for me as a packer/tagger for Chomel and I start tomorrow(today, technically). Seeing that the Night Safari people have left me out of their "possible employees" list, I have decided that I shall stick around as a packer/tagger before the Night Safari people realise their horrendous mistake and justify it by calling me up for an interview. After which I'd leave Chomel to grapple with their loss of the best packer/tagger they'd ever seen by quitting them and leaving poor Sam all alone in the cold dark claustrophobic room packing/tagging like never before.
No but seriously I really hope the Night Safari people call me soon and save me from the cold dark claustrophobic room in which the future shines bright for me as a packer/tagger and swish me away to a place where people pay twenty five bucks to watch sleeping animals. But well at least it's open air out there, unlike the cold dark claustrophobic room.
But actually I've not started work as yet and I haven't even been to the workplace so I'm not realy sure if it's cold, dark and claustrophobic. Aha. So there you go, tells you how much I want to work at the Night Safari such that any other job I'm offered seems so inconsequential and lousy. Gah.
Well I'd really like to work for the Night Safari! Who knows I might have the chance to train the lions to jump out at the tram when it passes by and bite on to the railings with their teeth. But wait are there lions at the safari? Or maybe I'd have the chance to train the bears to jump out at the tram when it passes by and bite on to the railings with their teeth. I know! There are deer! I've seen them before! So perhaps I'd have the chance to train the deer to jump out at the tram when it passes by and bite on to the railings with their teeth and maybe scare the people in the tram with grass essence dripping from their teeth. Yes, that would be a pleasant experience for the visitors to the Night Safari. So, I say, I really should work at the Night Safari. Sigh.
And Jielun totally rocks. I can't think of any better way to put it. Ah well.
He is my love.
And *drumroll please*... introducing... NATHANIEL! He's a friend of mine from Canoeing days. He's this really happy person! =) And since Nathaniel's been introduced, I find it difficult not to introduce another friend of mine.
And *drumroll please*... introducing... ANITA! She's a friend of mine from class. She's this really crappy person! ha ha!
See Nathaniel, I mentioned you! And you too Anita! =) And I'm really glad to have you both as my friends. Yay!
And of course I'm glad to have other wonderful people as my friends, but if I were to mention all of them and do a short write-up on each one, I think I might just get fired by Chomel for not turning up on the first day of work because it would take all night and all of the next day. Well it's not that I have thaaaaaaaat many friends, but I think each of them are like so wonderful and so so so so so special that.. that.. that I'm at a loss for words and sigh, I really love them. Love you all guys! <3
Speaking of friends I just went out with Evelyn, Jiawen and Bryan and I thought the entire outing was such a hilarious affair. Yes, that was definitely enjoyable. =)
But for now I've got to get some sleep, because I've got to gear up for work in the cold dark claustrophobic room which awaits me in approximately seven and a half hour's time. Okay, that's it for now!
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
How Do We Like Things As Such?
Things to do for the Holidays:
Number 1: Get a life.
Ways in which one like me can get a life:
- Get an income! By applying for a job and clinching it such that my material needs and wants can hopefully be fulfilled and I will be livelier.
- Get a boyfriend! By flying to Taiwan and accosting a certain Jay Chou and telling him we were meant to be and I will be much livelier. Or the alternative would be to hook up with the next guy in Sentosa that smiles at me, in an innocent kinda way and I will be less livelier than if it were Jay Chou, but definitely livelier alright.
- Have a stayover! By bugging any one of my friends around me to organise one and messing up their house, following them around all the time and sleeping on their beds and I will be Almost Brimming with Life! (<-- Look it's an exclamation mark, and this indicates that I'm at least a little Livelier now! <-- Oh hey it's another one! and another! yet another! oh hey there's one more!...)
- Have a 2D chalet! But hey that's not up to me! But it will definitely make me a Livelier person! But I do have a feeling that at the end of the chalet I'd resemble living dead more than anything else and there's nothing Lively about that no siree.
- Look forward to Christmas and New Year!! Whoohoo! Isn't Christmas the Loveliest festivity ever?! I simply love Christmas! That is life alright.
- Be nice to Bessie, Phillip and Carolyn! By buying them Christmas presents which they do not need, but want indeed! And that would set me back by alot of money, which brings me all the way back to my first point of getting an income. Seems like I would need a larger income then. Perhaps I could try for two jobs! And then that would make me a very busy person indeed and I would not be able to get a boyfriend, have a stayover, have a 2D chalet, look forward to Christmas and New Year or be nice to Bessie, Phillip and Carolyn!!! AAAARGH! It's a VICIOUS cycle!! So maybe I'll make do with one job and then the three of them will have to make do with hand-made presents or something. =) That will do nicely.
Number 2: Watch the Gemini starshower with Tofu like every year!
Number 3: STUDY!
hahaaa gotcha! bet you were TRICKED!
okay whatever I'm in love with Oliver Twist right now!
and this is pretty much what i wanna do in the holidays minus the third point. Wow! I don't think the holidays are even long enough.
=)
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Fuck Off and Die.
It's a tragedy when life contains no meaning. And 'tragic' is the perfect word to describe my life right now. Sometimes I wonder if I'm wallowing in Self-Pity because it seems to me right now that's what I'm doing. It's so Pathetic that I'm so Pathetic and currently, life is so Pathetically Pathetic. (WOW I make a great Scrabble player with my wide range of vocabulary.)
SAJC is still an unhappy place for me. There's no warmth whatsoever in that place. Each day I dread going to school. Friends don't feel like friends, no offense, but it really hurts. I mean it's great just hanging out with them but there's always this distance and it fucking hurts. No I don't know what I'm saying do I? And I don't know what to say or what to do. I miss 9P, jiawen and siyun so much. I can't do without 9P, but 9P can do without each other. Everything seems so meaningless right now, such that I actually try to find meaning in the music I listen to, all that shit about happy songs. I am so hating life right now fuck if I had one wish I'd want to stay at the age of 15 for all eternity when I was stupid enough to believe in the phrase "Friends Forever" and all that crap about trying hard to keep the friendship alive. And maybe I should just fuck off and die and maybe the world will be a fucking better place.
Shit I feel like a dumbass but I was so looking forward to watch Corpse Bride with 9P even when people were telling me not to because it was a sucky show and all but I wanted to because it was a promise made. I wanted to go to Sentosa with the class as a class. I want to play bball with 9P all over again like in the past at the ayer rajah bball court, or the leng kee bball court which ever until we were all tired. I want to hang out with jiawen siyun and evelyn on the rocks at the gombak stadium until late at night like in the past even though it was the Literature exam the next day. I want to be able to open up to all my friends like I always can with 9P. I want to be able to see my friends together and happy each day. I want to do everything possible there is and shit, I feel like everything is taken for granted. Fuck I don't know what I'm talking about again. Life isn't about angsty blog entries and shit. Life is about being happy and I know what I want in life, and that is to be happy.
But SAJC is such a miserable place.
SAJC is still an unhappy place for me. There's no warmth whatsoever in that place. Each day I dread going to school. Friends don't feel like friends, no offense, but it really hurts. I mean it's great just hanging out with them but there's always this distance and it fucking hurts. No I don't know what I'm saying do I? And I don't know what to say or what to do. I miss 9P, jiawen and siyun so much. I can't do without 9P, but 9P can do without each other. Everything seems so meaningless right now, such that I actually try to find meaning in the music I listen to, all that shit about happy songs. I am so hating life right now fuck if I had one wish I'd want to stay at the age of 15 for all eternity when I was stupid enough to believe in the phrase "Friends Forever" and all that crap about trying hard to keep the friendship alive. And maybe I should just fuck off and die and maybe the world will be a fucking better place.
Shit I feel like a dumbass but I was so looking forward to watch Corpse Bride with 9P even when people were telling me not to because it was a sucky show and all but I wanted to because it was a promise made. I wanted to go to Sentosa with the class as a class. I want to play bball with 9P all over again like in the past at the ayer rajah bball court, or the leng kee bball court which ever until we were all tired. I want to hang out with jiawen siyun and evelyn on the rocks at the gombak stadium until late at night like in the past even though it was the Literature exam the next day. I want to be able to open up to all my friends like I always can with 9P. I want to be able to see my friends together and happy each day. I want to do everything possible there is and shit, I feel like everything is taken for granted. Fuck I don't know what I'm talking about again. Life isn't about angsty blog entries and shit. Life is about being happy and I know what I want in life, and that is to be happy.
But SAJC is such a miserable place.
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