Godspeed.

It's about ten thirty in the morning right now. Here I am sitting in front of the computer, about to update about my escapade from Chomel.
I've just been to the work place. It wasn't cold, dark and claustrophobic as I had expected, on the contrary, it was rather noisy, brightly lit and spacious indeed. Yes, and I was really hesitant about working at that place and I wasn't sure why I was feeling that way. But yes, when the woman gave me the application form to fill up I started writing my name, marital status, race, nationality and then I started freaking out. Well, she said that I had to work until mid-december and that there was no way I could back out before that, and she was speaking in a loud, almost screechy voice. I dunno. And then I removed the application form from the clipboard and took flight before anyone could say "I'm a Chomel employee, may I help you?". I guess I chickened. It's like as if commitment doesn't exist in my values as a person, but it isn't like I have many in the first place. As far as I can remember, it has always been such that I can't commit myself to doing something; same with studies, same with ideals and it is always the same with some interests even.
I remember the time in Secondary One, when I wanted to learn to play the "di zi", (well that's the kind of flute they use in the Chinese Orchestra by the way) and my mom bought one for me, I fiddled with it for nearly a month and it's been lying await in the cupboard for a better owner ever since.
And to think that I often tell myself to go ahead with any decision that I make and not regret it. What an irony.
Regret. Regret. Regret.
(For those who play Halo 2, I think the Prophet of Regret is a dumb name.)

And I really feel as though I have let Sam down. Once again, my greatest apologies.

For now, I guess I'll have to wait for Carolyn to get back to me about the job at Coffeebean and The Tea Leaf. Well I always thought the name was cute. But of course I still wish that the Night Safari would hire me. Or maybe I should just go and peddle drugs. Nah, I'd probably take them and end up in rehab.

Ah, My Love.

I swear Jay Chou is the hottest being that ever graced the Earth with divine feet. Like seriously, what wouldn't I give for a just a tiny chip of his toenail.

Yay, Long Live Jay Chou the King, the Cutest One, the Greatly Endeared One, the Most Kind, Gracious and Intelligent One etc...

It's late and I'm quite sleepy. Sam found work for me as a packer/tagger for Chomel and I start tomorrow(today, technically). Seeing that the Night Safari people have left me out of their "possible employees" list, I have decided that I shall stick around as a packer/tagger before the Night Safari people realise their horrendous mistake and justify it by calling me up for an interview. After which I'd leave Chomel to grapple with their loss of the best packer/tagger they'd ever seen by quitting them and leaving poor Sam all alone in the cold dark claustrophobic room packing/tagging like never before.
No but seriously I really hope the Night Safari people call me soon and save me from the cold dark claustrophobic room in which the future shines bright for me as a packer/tagger and swish me away to a place where people pay twenty five bucks to watch sleeping animals. But well at least it's open air out there, unlike the cold dark claustrophobic room.
But actually I've not started work as yet and I haven't even been to the workplace so I'm not realy sure if it's cold, dark and claustrophobic. Aha. So there you go, tells you how much I want to work at the Night Safari such that any other job I'm offered seems so inconsequential and lousy. Gah.

Well I'd really like to work for the Night Safari! Who knows I might have the chance to train the lions to jump out at the tram when it passes by and bite on to the railings with their teeth. But wait are there lions at the safari? Or maybe I'd have the chance to train the bears to jump out at the tram when it passes by and bite on to the railings with their teeth. I know! There are deer! I've seen them before! So perhaps I'd have the chance to train the deer to jump out at the tram when it passes by and bite on to the railings with their teeth and maybe scare the people in the tram with grass essence dripping from their teeth. Yes, that would be a pleasant experience for the visitors to the Night Safari. So, I say, I really should work at the Night Safari. Sigh.

And Jielun totally rocks. I can't think of any better way to put it. Ah well.

He is my love.

And *drumroll please*... introducing... NATHANIEL! He's a friend of mine from Canoeing days. He's this really happy person! =) And since Nathaniel's been introduced, I find it difficult not to introduce another friend of mine.
And *drumroll please*... introducing... ANITA! She's a friend of mine from class. She's this really crappy person! ha ha!
See Nathaniel, I mentioned you! And you too Anita! =) And I'm really glad to have you both as my friends. Yay!
And of course I'm glad to have other wonderful people as my friends, but if I were to mention all of them and do a short write-up on each one, I think I might just get fired by Chomel for not turning up on the first day of work because it would take all night and all of the next day. Well it's not that I have thaaaaaaaat many friends, but I think each of them are like so wonderful and so so so so so special that.. that.. that I'm at a loss for words and sigh, I really love them. Love you all guys! <3

Speaking of friends I just went out with Evelyn, Jiawen and Bryan and I thought the entire outing was such a hilarious affair. Yes, that was definitely enjoyable. =)

But for now I've got to get some sleep, because I've got to gear up for work in the cold dark claustrophobic room which awaits me in approximately seven and a half hour's time. Okay, that's it for now!

How Do We Like Things As Such?

Things to do for the Holidays:

Number 1: Get a life.

Ways in which one like me can get a life:

- Get an income! By applying for a job and clinching it such that my material needs and wants can hopefully be fulfilled and I will be livelier.

- Get a boyfriend! By flying to Taiwan and accosting a certain Jay Chou and telling him we were meant to be and I will be much livelier. Or the alternative would be to hook up with the next guy in Sentosa that smiles at me, in an innocent kinda way and I will be less livelier than if it were Jay Chou, but definitely livelier alright.

- Have a stayover! By bugging any one of my friends around me to organise one and messing up their house, following them around all the time and sleeping on their beds and I will be Almost Brimming with Life! (<-- Look it's an exclamation mark, and this indicates that I'm at least a little Livelier now! <-- Oh hey it's another one! and another! yet another! oh hey there's one more!...)

- Have a 2D chalet! But hey that's not up to me! But it will definitely make me a Livelier person! But I do have a feeling that at the end of the chalet I'd resemble living dead more than anything else and there's nothing Lively about that no siree.

- Look forward to Christmas and New Year!! Whoohoo! Isn't Christmas the Loveliest festivity ever?! I simply love Christmas! That is life alright.

- Be nice to Bessie, Phillip and Carolyn! By buying them Christmas presents which they do not need, but want indeed! And that would set me back by alot of money, which brings me all the way back to my first point of getting an income. Seems like I would need a larger income then. Perhaps I could try for two jobs! And then that would make me a very busy person indeed and I would not be able to get a boyfriend, have a stayover, have a 2D chalet, look forward to Christmas and New Year or be nice to Bessie, Phillip and Carolyn!!! AAAARGH! It's a VICIOUS cycle!! So maybe I'll make do with one job and then the three of them will have to make do with hand-made presents or something. =) That will do nicely.

Number 2: Watch the Gemini starshower with Tofu like every year!

Number 3: STUDY!

hahaaa gotcha! bet you were TRICKED!
okay whatever I'm in love with Oliver Twist right now!
and this is pretty much what i wanna do in the holidays minus the third point. Wow! I don't think the holidays are even long enough.
=)