Why Do Things Happen The Way They Do?

Hello. How ironical it is for a person to only start missing something after she's lost it. Oh well. That's pretty sad isn't it.
And I really miss Pioneer Junior College. Like everything there rocks. EVEN the teachers. But most of all my class rocks. yeah.. 05A02.. They're nothing like any class i've had before.. they're dirty, retarded, crazy and totally wild. Oh man. call us rowdy if you want but that's what i call fun. yeah, They're like really fun. Not that my other friends aren't, but seriously, it's like a whole new dimension. I loved A02. But now that i'm no longer part of them, i love them even more. =(
Yah. I'll never forget how all that dirtiness came about. "Why Daniel never COME?" oh man. and from then on, my mind was beyond salvation, or so i thought until i arrived at SA.
My class at SA, 05A32 is like the most enthusiastic J1 class in SA but still, i find them a tad boring. well. I guess no one quite measures up to A02. Just the other day, some of my classmates were like, "so are they coming?" and i was like laughing to myself, thinking of how everyone around me would be laughing if i were back with A02 and suddenly i felt at loss. Not to mention the dull pain that was inflicted on me. And then i felt like a fool.
The last time i went back to Pioneer Landy was singing on stage and i thought, I'd never be able to hear him sing for a long time now. Nor would i be able to sing along with Evelyn in class. Nor say "buddybuddy FriendsForever" with Suxian. Or sit in the girl's toilet with Peiling, Celestine and Jessie just to skip lessons. Nor would i be able to hear Priscilla, Clement and Janice talk dirty. And Teck Yen and Zhen Hui calling me retard. And laughing at Samantha's Bryan Bondage thingy.And calling Dominique domdom for the sake of doing so. And listen to Adeline sing the Spongebob Squarepants theme song. Or calling Sherlyn Poko and bursting out into laughter. Or gushing about X JAPAN with Joe. Or see Shaowei play drums. Or see Lysa smile her ever so sincere smile. Or laughing and getting frustrated by the dumb things Chervin does. And that kinda saddens me. In fact it saddens me alot. And i wish that I hadn't been so stupid.
Even the piano in the canteen contains precious moments woven into melodies played by the random Pioneer who ventures there during breaks.
Oh well. I guess all done's done. All that crap about turning back time? Why wish for the impossible.
Anyway. Life Goes On.

Ghastly

Buggers for HTML. I totally suck at it. Damn. The computer idiot strikes again! Ah well.
Shoot. It's late and I'm getting pretty spooked. Well you see, right now I'm the only one awake and there's no knowing what my mother is capable of in the middle of the night. She might just wake up and speak to me and stink up the air with her bad breath, or my dad might take a toilet break and come creeping up behind me. Even as i type, i shudder as I think of the one million and one ways in which I might get spooked, one of them which involves me turning my head forty five degrees to the right and seeing the picture of my sister. But that wouldn't be spooky, that would be really scary.
Speaking about photographs, I wonder what people feel when they look at photographs. I think photos speak to me. ("I see dead people") "I hear photos," deadpans. But anyway, who will ever want to know about what photos have to say to me?! most importantly, photographs speak different languages to different people.
So much for wanting to be a photographer.

If I Were A Hot Air Balloon

If I were a hot air balloon, will I still eat spicy food? well, I guess if I were a hot air balloon, I wouldn't have the ability to actually eat, much less eat spicy food. But if I really had to answer the question, I would have to say that i wouldn't eat spicy food if I were a hot air balloon. What if it got too spicy for me to take and i had to drink something to neutralise the spicy-ness, and i actually put out my fire by accident? OH no, i wouldn't want that if I were a hot air balloon.

I think my dad is psychotic. Forgive me dad, but i do think that you have a major problem. You're hooked to the XBox, hooked to Taiwanese variety television programs, don't have any other contacts in your handphone other than us your family members, laughs at the most unfunny jokes, and tries to make us laugh at the most unfunny jokes. You nutcase you! I'd say it's okay.

Because that's the way you are. And I, as your daughter, will just have to accept it.

Exfoliation

When I shower I exfoliate to shed all dead skin. Just like i shall write to shed all my thoughts to make place for new ones. But we can't reveal too much can we? ah well. I used to have an opendiary, but i guess that's history now. No shit I can't even remember my user name. But what does it matter anyway now that I've 'upgraded' to this. I am so total computer idiot I think one day I might just drop (brain)dead trying to purchase a tee shirt owned by Jay Chou through the internet only to find that oh, I'm wading around knee-deep in credit card debts. But whatever, I guess I'd just have to live with that.

But wait, I don't even have a credit card.