Sup homies it's been a while. 

While the sadness attacks don't really hit so frequently nowadays, as in less things trigger the sadness, I've been watching this series called See You Again (Season 4) about 3 couples deciding whether or not to get divorced, and can I just say that it's been a whole exercise in mental/emotional resilience?

There's the husband of this couple on the show who totally reminds me of my ex-husband. How, you may ask, and these are the ways:

1. He says things like "if I don't love you, I would not have married you. Because I married you, it means that I love you." as a way of justifying that he loves the wife. 

2. He lives in his own space in the house and they sleep in separate rooms.

3. The wife says that she does not feel loved by him at all i.e. he does not express love or affection to her. They also don't do things together. 

4. He doesn't do chores. 

But the kicker is, it wasn't this guy who got me feeling regretful today, it was another couple's reflections that reminded me of something my ex-husband told me. I had asked him who loves the other more, and he had very certainly told me that I loved him more. On hindsight, maybe that was when I should have bailed. 

No doubt there could be one party who loves the other more, or rather does more for the other, and by no means do I expect everything to be 50-50 all the time. But it also cannot be 90-10 all the damned time, amirite?

Peace y'all.