Welcome to the Freakshow

Hello,
Othello,
Performing on the
Cello.

Crying,
Trying,
Nowhere near
Succeeding.

Donny died today. Donny had wanted to go out of his snowdome, but Donny had nowhere to go to. And Donny tried too hard.
When Donny died it was peaceful and sunny outside. Donny's spirit rose up above Donny's house and banged against the glass of the snowdome. Donny's spirit tried again and again to get out of the snowdome, but it couldn't. When Donny was alive, Donny realised that too many people were getting to know about Donny. And Donny didn't like the people peering into his snowdome time and again. Donny felt like a freakshow. Donny wanted to get out of his snowdome and fly away. But Donny never could. Now, even in Death was Donny trapped in the snowdome. Now don't get Donny wrong, Donny loved his snowdome alright, but Donny was a person after all. Donny couldn't always stay in the same place could he?

And now Donny's dead.

Artsy Fartsy

Yesterday i was out with the mother. On the bus ride home we contemplated life. yes, take note it's not "I contemplated Life..." but it's "we contemplated Life..." Well actually I don't contemplate life, it's just that people see me frowning and they think i'm deep in thought when actually I'm just squinting a little cause I'm Short -Sighted. Aha! gotcha there! thought i was gonna say Short didn't you. But NO, I'm NOT SHORT alright. Aha! gotcha again cause I'm actually SHORT! Okay i'd admit I'm a little loony. Aha! gotcha one more time because i DO contemplate life. Right. Oh no i'm so irritating. Okay back to the mother. So it goes.
Me, "All of a sudden i'm sixteen going on seventeen."
Ma, "Yah lor yah lor, so fast hor. I still remember when you were small, the very first time you stood up by yourself, you were so happy."
"hmm. really? I can't really remember much of that."
"yah, and when you were in primary school you used to smile alot. The old lady downstairs always told me that you made her happy cause you were always smiling. wish you were a kid don't you. No troubles and worries and all."
I nodded. yeah, that's true isn't it? i say. And the mother looks so much older now.
And aha! gotcha one last time! we weren't contemplating life, we were thinking back on it!! bahaha. okay. I shall just grow up and like get a life.

Damned RatRace.

I was supposed to collect my O level certificate with the 4L dudes today. (oh no, now you know my education level! ack.) As usual, i left my house late, and therefore i expected to be the last one to arrive. At the train station, i sent a message to one of them, saying that i'll be late. okay actually i was already late, but in case they thought i died on the way i decided to sent a message to them. Almost immediately i got a call from the friend telling me not to leave the house, saying that she was at home, and that another friend was also at home, and that one friend had soccer, and that the other's grandfather passed away (my condolences), and the last one had training. Great. Just Great. Why wasn't i informed earlier? how ironic. just when i actually get down to putting time away for them 4L they had to stand me up. it was usually me who couldn't find time for them. ah well. i guess that's what they call karma. So i had to trudge home from the station. Sad and lonely me.

Today Donny had fun in his snow dome. As usual Donny's house was turned topsy-turvy for a moment and snow was swirling outside. Donny reached out of the window and caught a handful of sunlight shining through the snow. Donny put the handful of sunlight in a jam jar to see Donny through the day.

Last night was such a tragic night. Alegria was showing on Arts Central. Those who watched it please raise your hand. Good. I thought it was a fine show though i only caught the 2nd half (the mother was watching some hongkong serial). sigh. and Fraz put up such a fine performance. And the show brought so many messages across. It was really touching. And i cried and cried.(well, maybe i was crying for the fact that i missed the first half. But seriously the show was really touching) oh no. i tell you i've never cried so much while watching a show before. it was superb. Okay so the story goes, this clown Fraz, fell in love with the daughter of the ring master of Cirque de Soleil (meaning circus of the sun or something like that). This daughter of his also performs in the circus. Her father doesn't approve of them being together. and yes, there's really more to the show. And it's all really sweet. gosh. i really want to watch it again. yes. Fraz reminds me of HIM. you know, that Hot Irish Man? yes.

" I'm in love with you. How're you feeling right now?"
" I'm happy, yet I'm sad."
" That's when you're in love."
And i cried. All the above takes place amidst the circus acrobats doing their act. gosh. it's all so romantic. And I so love it. And it's so inspiring. ack. i'm rambling. it's really cute and all. sigh. i wish i could watch it again. I woke up this morning with puffy eyes. You know how you only wake up in the morning with puffy eyes when you've been crying alot the night before? yes. that's what happened to me. sigh. What a wonderful show.

Talking about HIM, I watched Twelfth Night a second time and he was hotter then ever. sigh. And i got his autograph and he kept the hearts we made for him. sigh. During group picture time, HE PUT HIS ARM AROUND ME!!!!!!!! OH I ALMOST DIED. I yelped and he's like " oh, what did i do!" jokingly. haha. good god. he's just so cute. Sigh. I'm gonna go for EVERY ONE of his productions in future. sigh. life's good when hot people exist.

Donny's sky was dark today. Donny loved his snow dome, but Donny wished there were other people living near Donny. Rats. Donny didn't even have cats near his house. Poor, Lonely Donny. If only Donny's toboggan could take Donny out of the snow dome. But then again, Donny's toboggan wouldn't work outside snow would it? Donny's love was starting to waver.