Wait wait! I forgot to tok abt my bf! Today my bf went to the jungle for training. I feel veri scareds for my bf cos i heard tt the jungle got wild boar! x= What if the wild boar attack my bf? I am veri worried. ): I luv my bf veri much, nothing mus happen to him!

And juz now rite, got one veri veri veri veri veri big beetle fly into my house! AAAAAAH! I almost faint, but luckily it fly out quickly after it fly in.

Haha, this pic got no make up so veri ugly. =pPpppPppPpP

I Simply MUST DO This.

Nope not that, whoever said anything about the assignment, silly.

Helloooo frieeends!
I'm going to embark on an experimental blogging journey and do an entry about my day, maybe I'll see the logic behind people who derive joy in doing that, and I'll become one of them. Then at least this blog will be updated more frequently. Yaaay!

Today I woke up at 1 pm cos last nite i was trying to do my essay and i slept at 6 am, so i was really tired and only woke at 1. To my horror, i realised dat i was going to b late for my date with mel to buy dg's pressie! So i got up fast fast, and went to brush my teeth and bathe. When I came out of the bathroom, mel msged me and told me dat she would be driving, and said that she cld come and pick me up. Mel so nice rite~! :D So she picked me up and we went to Vivo.
Haha I luv Vivo cos it is alwaes nice and cold, and there is alwaes so many things to see!
We ate thai express for lunch, melmel had the bangkok chicken rice, and I had the glass noodles in tom yum soup. Really yummiez! Then while we were eating we kept discussing what to do for dg's bday celebration on sat, and what to buy for her.

(Aside: It actually takes more effort phrasing the sentences. I'm gonna push deeper into bimbocity. There's this mosquito flying around and it's annoying me. And I miss the tom yum soup already.)

Heehee! So we juz walk arnd aft lunch and we tot of getting face products 4 her but we didn't noe wich type to buy so we didn't buy lor. then we pass by action city, and saw many many cute cute stuffs! so we bought sumthing 4 her frm there (shhh, secret!), and den rine came to find us. we walk walk around summore and bot another 2 more pressies for her! yaaay so happie! then we acompany rine to have dinner and den melmel send us home. (:

After i reach home i ate my dinner. very yummie too! after watching tv for a while i fell asleep and woke up at 1 am to do my assignment again. But den i got distracted and come n update my blog! i luv my blog! :D

Dis is fun! I shall type like dis in future! XOXO!

Things You Didn't Know about Your Friends...

..which you suddenly learn about them through their blogs. Today I saw a sensitive side of a friend that I'd never seen before. Which isn't surprising considering I've only known her for, oh, close to two years. But I only see her for at most 5 hours per week on average, so it's not much chance to have long talks and whatnots.

I was really touched by her entries and it made her feel more real as a person with emotions and feelings as compared to rather aloof-and-in-control one that I'd been accustomed to. Well, in a way I think it's quite a pity that I haven't taken the effort to get to know her more, but hey it's never too late right? Yes that's right.

So things have been slightly awful, which shouldn't be a surprise because one part of me is convinced that I am damned to rot in the deepest levels of academic hell, but another part of me is saying that salvation is still an option, and going to school definitely isn't.
So once again I am going to try and clean up my act, and hopefully this will be the last you hear of me lamenting about my less than brilliant pursuits in academic excellence.

Screwit.

No Happy Friend, it's not enough that I ranted to you on MSN, I have to rant about it here too.

I'm going to Bintan tomorrow, and every inch of me screams reluctance. If it wasn't on account that I've known her for the longest time, I wouldn't even have considered before rejecting such an invitation. But at the same time it's also precisely because I've known her for the longest time that all the more I feel like I should reject her invitation.

I don't like that it's such a disorganised trip. It's the first time I'm going away to some place I don't know much about because she didn't tell us the details. Of course I know to look it up in the net, but that's not what I'm talking about. No itinerary, no details about the place we're staying in, no update on when and where to meet, no idea about when the ferry is going to leave Singapore etc. That's not planning, that's more like booking a trip for the whole lot and leaving it at that. Seriously, I can so picture what we're gonna do there, we're just gonna muck around in the sun. I'm just gonna sleep the 2 days away so that I don't have to socialise, or eat any 12 dollar per plate fish and chips which I'm sure won't be value for money. It's really just another touristy place like Sentosa where they knock the cash off visitors.

I don't like that I'm going with people I'm not familiar with. I don't even know half of the people going. Like heck I am going to enjoy making new friends on a two day trip and then say goodbye and never see them again forever. It's not even worth the bloody EFFort.

I don't like that I'm going to have to listen to mundane talk that people might throw at me. Heck, I get that a lot from her anyway. I am not interested, get it? I don't care if you think I'm 'gonna faint if you wear super short shorts and a silver bikini top' which screams LOOK AT ME or if it was your 'guy frens who asked you to buy the shorts because they think you look weird in longer shorts'. Honestly I don't give a damn. Why are you telling me all these mundane stuff? How does it help repair our diminishing friendship? It does nothing for me, and it probably stokes your vanity a little, and really, just go find someone else to tell these things to.

I am kicking myself really hard right now for being stupid enough to agree to go.

Stark Moments

This morning I awoke to the fact that I can be a judgmental person at times. More so towards my closer friends.

This morning I realised that emptiness is a horrid feeling to deal with. Without school I am hollowed, like I'm not getting the fulfillment I should be getting from my self as a student. It's screwed up how I understand that, but still refuse to attend school.

I'm probably the most lazy and irresponsible person I'll ever know.

Softly Now.

I don't like reading about people's breakups because it gets me all choked and soft inside, and it makes me go "why does love die?" and all the hairs on my arms stand.

I was reading random blogs and I was touched by some entries. On certain blogs it was like witnessing this generic story unfolding, from how they were really sweet in the beginning, of which the happiness accumulated through times spent on public transport, randomly making up words that were understood by only two people, family dinners, mutual support during trying times, giving and receiving second chances and the sorts, end up forgotten in a conclusive "I know we won't be happy because I wouldn't be happy."

It's pretty confounding how these things work.