More and more I'm getting the feeling that friends aren't that easy to keep. Much as I hate losing any single one of them, maybe some things just don't happen the way I'd like them to. It's just one of life's ways isn't it.
We've been through this many times right, aren't you tired? Oh right, why should you be considering you haven't really been trying. Maybe our days in secondary school are too far away to bring back warm feelings now. Or maybe it's just the way we don't talk at all now. Or maybe it's just that we don't really have much in common. Maybe it's pointless trying to pinpoint the reason, because if you'd thought there was something wrong, you'd have already tried. But you haven't, and I don't think you ever will.
We might as well be Strangers.
I thank the people who were there with me through my emo days.
Anita, the funny lady who makes me laugh with the things she say and her supernice messages. Hah I seriously was surprised when I got her smses and I felt warm and fuzzy in my heart. How can she be an ah lian when she's this thoughtful? :D
Lilian, I know she's going through a rough patch herself, and it was real nice of her to drop me that lovely sms. I know she'll be strong through all of this. Go lilian go!
Rachel, haha one of the main causes of my state of emo. I'd hate her for that, but then she's too lovable for me to do that. She's not here because she's somewhere else, but if she were chances are I'd be out with her right now because it's FRIDAY NIGHT! Or maybe I'd be out with her tomorrow night. Oh man, I miss her.
Johan, the drinker (of mineral water, of course) and the one who doesn't sleep much. Oh well what can I say, he's funny, and he's slightly capable of making me feel better. Slightly. But that capability increases with more drinks. But then again maybe it's the drinks ha.
Jianwei, hey babe! I'm sorry about the time I got all moody while we were at Tampines Mall, you were really nice la and I felt damn guilty after we left the place. She makes a great listener. Haha you're always so bubbly and warm! :)
Heler, sunshine boy who is able to make me feel better, he's the one who made it possible for me to see the brighter picture. He makes me laugh with all the lame things he says, and I am amused by the similarities we share.
EMO DAYS AWAY AWAY AWAAAAAY!
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
In and Out - Once Is Enough
I see the things that happen in life, and they make me scared, afraid.
They make me want to cry, to scream in anguish, to bury my head in the pillow and suffocate.
They make me stay awake at night, when it's all dark outside, and they all come out to play, to play in my head, and in this heat, it's unbearable. I need to sleep.
When it's light outside all about, the song keeps playing on loop, repeat, it continues, it sings "you could be happy, you could be happy"
Yes I could be happy, I could be happy if I were carefree. But if I were carefree, I'd be inhuman.
When life comes to a standstill, and other people's lives go by, it's not right, you don't feel good, but at the same time it feels good too. It comes in spasms, like you know it's not right, but it feels right, but then again sometimes it's all wrong.
Today on the escalator up I had a dizzy spell. I'd never had any dizzy spell that serious in all my eighteen years. I couldn't walk straight, it was like I was drunk. Drunk on something unheard of, drunk on the song on repeat, drunk on heat, drunk on everything happening in other people's lives.
It sings "more than anything I want to see you go."
I feel the wind blowing against my hair and it is not a nice feeling like they say it should be. In fact it is one of the most horrid things I've ever experienced.
It must be that time of the month because everywhere I turn everything I see reminds me of how we used to be. And remembering makes me feel so bad. It doesn't always make me feel bad, but today I felt really bad.
Oh my god Oh my god Oh my god Oh my god Oh my god. "And for the tiniest moment it's all not true."
I'm scared.
"You Could Be Happy" - Snow Patrol
You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go
(You're going, you're leaving, but you'll be back and we'll meet again and laugh and dance and scream and talk)
And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played on lips 'till it's madness in my head
(It's all the things I wished you had not said, that are being played inside my head)
Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur
(Don't do that, please don't)
Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door
(My memories are tinted with that shade of red, it makes everything look damn good)
You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far
(The black spots blot out the angst, and they spread into the inner depths of the chambers)
Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true
(My senses are dead I'm so sorry)
Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do
(I need something to re(lie) on)
More than anything I want to see you go
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world
(Go, go on, I love you)
They make me want to cry, to scream in anguish, to bury my head in the pillow and suffocate.
They make me stay awake at night, when it's all dark outside, and they all come out to play, to play in my head, and in this heat, it's unbearable. I need to sleep.
When it's light outside all about, the song keeps playing on loop, repeat, it continues, it sings "you could be happy, you could be happy"
Yes I could be happy, I could be happy if I were carefree. But if I were carefree, I'd be inhuman.
When life comes to a standstill, and other people's lives go by, it's not right, you don't feel good, but at the same time it feels good too. It comes in spasms, like you know it's not right, but it feels right, but then again sometimes it's all wrong.
Today on the escalator up I had a dizzy spell. I'd never had any dizzy spell that serious in all my eighteen years. I couldn't walk straight, it was like I was drunk. Drunk on something unheard of, drunk on the song on repeat, drunk on heat, drunk on everything happening in other people's lives.
It sings "more than anything I want to see you go."
I feel the wind blowing against my hair and it is not a nice feeling like they say it should be. In fact it is one of the most horrid things I've ever experienced.
It must be that time of the month because everywhere I turn everything I see reminds me of how we used to be. And remembering makes me feel so bad. It doesn't always make me feel bad, but today I felt really bad.
Oh my god Oh my god Oh my god Oh my god Oh my god. "And for the tiniest moment it's all not true."
I'm scared.
"You Could Be Happy" - Snow Patrol
You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go
(You're going, you're leaving, but you'll be back and we'll meet again and laugh and dance and scream and talk)
And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played on lips 'till it's madness in my head
(It's all the things I wished you had not said, that are being played inside my head)
Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur
(Don't do that, please don't)
Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door
(My memories are tinted with that shade of red, it makes everything look damn good)
You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far
(The black spots blot out the angst, and they spread into the inner depths of the chambers)
Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true
(My senses are dead I'm so sorry)
Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do
(I need something to re(lie) on)
More than anything I want to see you go
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world
(Go, go on, I love you)
Friday, May 11, 2007
It's Funny, What They Say
Life has a weird habit of making fools out of people. At least my life has a weird habit of making a fool out of me. Or is it just me fooling around with life?
Sometimes I get ridiculously happy over nothing and firmly declare that life is great. Sometimes I get ridiculously down and firmly declare that life is pretty crappy. But most of the time now I feel like nothing I do gives me any kick. You know, I can't get any kick out of doing the things I do. (Alright you should just kick me the next time you see me) But seriously, I not getting any satisfaction doing the things I'm doing, maybe except meeting up with friends.
Just a minute ago I felt like I had a lot to blog about, and a minute later my mind's a blank.
Therefore I shall do a list of things that I want to buy. (Wow! No brainer! I love no-brainers!)
1. A mobile phone. I want to get a Sony Ericsson model because they have the cutest phones.
Estimated price: $300
2. A pair of binoculars. This is not for bird watching, but for star gazing. I've had people telling me not to be ridiculous because you obviously cannot watch stars with binoculars. But you CAN if them binoculars were MADE FOR star watching duh.
Estimated price: $400
3. A point-and-shoot camera. Not the normal kind of digital cameras for casual photo taking, but one with manual zoom, with interchangeable lenses whoo. That turns me on.
Estimated price: At least $700
4. A bicycle. For whimsical night time cycling to visit friends who would probably be asleep. Or I can cycle to work.
Estimated price: $250
5. A motorcycle. For whimsical night time riding to visit friends who would probably be asleep. Or I can ride to work. I can so imagine myself riding on the road in the middle of the night. I like fantasising about that. :) But I guess it would be more practical to at least try and obtain a licence first right?
Estimated price: At least $4000? I have no idea how much a bike costs.
6. Google. YES I WANT TO BUY GOOGLE.
Estimated price: Priceless. What a priceless joke. I was just kidding when I said I want to buy google.
7. Earphones. With loud thubthumping bass that will drown out the singers' voices. Haha nah just kidding, as long as the bass is loud enough to drown out the background singers' voices. Haha nah kidding again, I just want good loud deep bass.
Estimated price: $70
Alright this is using up too much of my brain power. I've gotta leave some for the rest of the week. Argh I hate work. :(
Sometimes I get ridiculously happy over nothing and firmly declare that life is great. Sometimes I get ridiculously down and firmly declare that life is pretty crappy. But most of the time now I feel like nothing I do gives me any kick. You know, I can't get any kick out of doing the things I do. (Alright you should just kick me the next time you see me) But seriously, I not getting any satisfaction doing the things I'm doing, maybe except meeting up with friends.
Just a minute ago I felt like I had a lot to blog about, and a minute later my mind's a blank.
Therefore I shall do a list of things that I want to buy. (Wow! No brainer! I love no-brainers!)
1. A mobile phone. I want to get a Sony Ericsson model because they have the cutest phones.
Estimated price: $300
2. A pair of binoculars. This is not for bird watching, but for star gazing. I've had people telling me not to be ridiculous because you obviously cannot watch stars with binoculars. But you CAN if them binoculars were MADE FOR star watching duh.
Estimated price: $400
3. A point-and-shoot camera. Not the normal kind of digital cameras for casual photo taking, but one with manual zoom, with interchangeable lenses whoo. That turns me on.
Estimated price: At least $700
4. A bicycle. For whimsical night time cycling to visit friends who would probably be asleep. Or I can cycle to work.
Estimated price: $250
5. A motorcycle. For whimsical night time riding to visit friends who would probably be asleep. Or I can ride to work. I can so imagine myself riding on the road in the middle of the night. I like fantasising about that. :) But I guess it would be more practical to at least try and obtain a licence first right?
Estimated price: At least $4000? I have no idea how much a bike costs.
6. Google. YES I WANT TO BUY GOOGLE.
Estimated price: Priceless. What a priceless joke. I was just kidding when I said I want to buy google.
7. Earphones. With loud thubthumping bass that will drown out the singers' voices. Haha nah just kidding, as long as the bass is loud enough to drown out the background singers' voices. Haha nah kidding again, I just want good loud deep bass.
Estimated price: $70
Alright this is using up too much of my brain power. I've gotta leave some for the rest of the week. Argh I hate work. :(
Friday, April 06, 2007
Point, Sir.
You know your job's getting to you when you actually recognise the frames people are wearing, and worse, when you actually recognise your customers on the streets. I find doing the latter rather disturbing.
For instance, I'm in the MRT and I look to my left, and standing there is a inconspicuous lady who was in the shop a week ago, whom I'd tried serving only to find that she'd blatantly expressed her preference for the service of Chester, who is Boss No. 2 (ha I'd just succeeded in making him sound like a brand of fragrance). Now I'm not saying that's unfair or wrong, alot of people bypass me for Chester, I mean even I would bypass me for Chester (but hey I'm not saying my service isn't good -- a lady customer of mine bought me 5 Crystal Jade char siew puffs. But then again it might have been due to the $100 discount Boss No. 1 gave to her. Or how about the time the elderly Thai couple asked me if I'd ever been to Thailand, and even kindly asked me to visit? And I'm almost certainly sure that in the event that I drop in on them when I'm ever in Thailand all I'd get is a "Who are you?"). Back to the inconspicuous lady, the very thing I'd noticed about her was her timidity, and I (unsurprisingly) noticed that about her again when I saw her in the train. Oh well.
Or how about the time at Clarke Quay. I heard a deep voice giving directions, to which I turned my head only to see a face belonging to a man that I would only have seen in the course of work because there is absolutely nowhere else in my memory that I can recall me having an acquaintanceship with him. Yes, that was a customer alright.
Enough of work.
I've got to go clean up some tombstones now.
For instance, I'm in the MRT and I look to my left, and standing there is a inconspicuous lady who was in the shop a week ago, whom I'd tried serving only to find that she'd blatantly expressed her preference for the service of Chester, who is Boss No. 2 (ha I'd just succeeded in making him sound like a brand of fragrance). Now I'm not saying that's unfair or wrong, alot of people bypass me for Chester, I mean even I would bypass me for Chester (but hey I'm not saying my service isn't good -- a lady customer of mine bought me 5 Crystal Jade char siew puffs. But then again it might have been due to the $100 discount Boss No. 1 gave to her. Or how about the time the elderly Thai couple asked me if I'd ever been to Thailand, and even kindly asked me to visit? And I'm almost certainly sure that in the event that I drop in on them when I'm ever in Thailand all I'd get is a "Who are you?"). Back to the inconspicuous lady, the very thing I'd noticed about her was her timidity, and I (unsurprisingly) noticed that about her again when I saw her in the train. Oh well.
Or how about the time at Clarke Quay. I heard a deep voice giving directions, to which I turned my head only to see a face belonging to a man that I would only have seen in the course of work because there is absolutely nowhere else in my memory that I can recall me having an acquaintanceship with him. Yes, that was a customer alright.
Enough of work.
I've got to go clean up some tombstones now.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Tag - You're It.
Blinded (When I See You) - Third Eye Blind
Just an old friend coming over now to visit you and
That's what I've become
I let myself in though I know I'm not supposed to but
I never know when I'm done
("Are we gonna be friends?" I find myself constantly asking myself that. Or rather I find myself constantly wanting to ask him that. But thing is, I don't think he even wants to hear from me now. He doesn't message. He doesn't call. Not even as a friend? Why is that? Do you think he's angry? About what? I haven't got an inkling. Oh well.)
And I see you fogging up the mirror
Vapor round your body glistens in the shower
And I want to stay right here
and go down on you for an hour
( Have I ever mentioned that he has a great body? Yeah he does and I'd always felt secure with him. Minus the fact that his sense of balance is almost nonexistent. Gosh I love his built.)
Or stay, and let the day just fade away
In wild dedication, take the moment of hope
And let it run, and never look back at all the damage we have done now
To each other to each other to each other
(Yes, like all the times we've been quiet, not knowing what to say, and I had the strong urge to just plant a kiss on your cheek to make everything better, but always being restrained by something, something I know not of.)
Cause when I see you, it's like I'm staring down the sun
And I'm blinded
There's nothing left to do
But still I see you
(Everywhere I go now that we've been to before I still get these short clips in my head depicting all that we've ever done. Stop surfacing. Stop surfacing I say. Glorious memories melt into misery and pain when we're no more.)
I never believed that things they happen for a reason and
They never go as planned
(I hated planning, and you were one who had to plan everything beforehand. You wanted to make full use of your time. I have always been idle.)
I wanted to thank you for a vision that was lost that you returned
but you're passed do you understand
(You were my miracle. You are my miracle no more.)
Now her appetite is blown, little else is known
Except she a little angry, grabs a towel and looks away
And heat fades with the day
And I fall down on what to say,
Oh something clean let me be clever
(Now there must be something wrong when I've got more to talk about with my friends than what I've got to talk about with you. But I always tried. But the more I tried the less I had to say. And when words failed so did we.)
Hey oh well whatever
But that's not what I mean
Where we've been has left us burned
Still I won't turn now from a fight
You know I'll never win
(You once told me, in the event that we fought, to just ignore what you said and never to argue with you because ultimately I would be the one getting hurt. And that when you've cooled down you'd be able put yourself in my shoes and think about the matter in a rational way. But we never had the chance to fight.)
So when I see you, you know all the things I've done
Well I'm blinded
Like I'm staring down the sun
When I see you when I see you when I see you
It's like I'm staring down the sun
I'm blinded
(The times I watched you on the basketball court. You were in your element and you practically shone. At least I saw you shine. And now your face is still inked in my mind.)
Time passes and it tells us what we're left with
We become the things we do
(I was eaten by insecurities, but they were justified in the end. I saw it as a sign.)
Me I'm a fool, spent from defiance, yeah you got me but
I didn't give up on you
(There were times when I contemplated if I was doing the right thing. Maybe we should have waited longer before getting together. But it's okay, we tried right? It's all about feel.)
Icarus is not a tee shirt or a swan song, no
He is born again and it's not easy being me
(Heartily know, when half-gods go, the gods arrive. - Emerson)
But I can't promise I will mend or bend
When you believe that we are fixed now from our birth
And I've just fallen back to earth
Still you know I'll try again
(I take it as a consolation that we weren't very deep in love because the fall was then not as hard. And it appears now that even if there was a slightest chance that we'd get back together for some reason I wouldn't want that, but if I could turn back time I would definitely choose the path that I had chosen then, and get together with you all over again even if we had to break up ultimately.)
Cause I believe that
We are lucky
We are golden
We're stolen manners
In the days when we were one
(You made me see things the way I 'd never been able to before.)
So when I see you, despite all that we've become
I'm still blinded
But I'm still staring down the sun
When I see you when I see you when I see you
I'm still staring down the sun I'm still staring down the sun I'm still staring down the sun
I'm blinded
(There is no blame. I still miss you and think of you constantly, but hey think on the bright side, it hasn't even been one month since we ended. Give me more time alright?)
Heartily know, when half-gods go, the gods arrive.
Just an old friend coming over now to visit you and
That's what I've become
I let myself in though I know I'm not supposed to but
I never know when I'm done
("Are we gonna be friends?" I find myself constantly asking myself that. Or rather I find myself constantly wanting to ask him that. But thing is, I don't think he even wants to hear from me now. He doesn't message. He doesn't call. Not even as a friend? Why is that? Do you think he's angry? About what? I haven't got an inkling. Oh well.)
And I see you fogging up the mirror
Vapor round your body glistens in the shower
And I want to stay right here
and go down on you for an hour
( Have I ever mentioned that he has a great body? Yeah he does and I'd always felt secure with him. Minus the fact that his sense of balance is almost nonexistent. Gosh I love his built.)
Or stay, and let the day just fade away
In wild dedication, take the moment of hope
And let it run, and never look back at all the damage we have done now
To each other to each other to each other
(Yes, like all the times we've been quiet, not knowing what to say, and I had the strong urge to just plant a kiss on your cheek to make everything better, but always being restrained by something, something I know not of.)
Cause when I see you, it's like I'm staring down the sun
And I'm blinded
There's nothing left to do
But still I see you
(Everywhere I go now that we've been to before I still get these short clips in my head depicting all that we've ever done. Stop surfacing. Stop surfacing I say. Glorious memories melt into misery and pain when we're no more.)
I never believed that things they happen for a reason and
They never go as planned
(I hated planning, and you were one who had to plan everything beforehand. You wanted to make full use of your time. I have always been idle.)
I wanted to thank you for a vision that was lost that you returned
but you're passed do you understand
(You were my miracle. You are my miracle no more.)
Now her appetite is blown, little else is known
Except she a little angry, grabs a towel and looks away
And heat fades with the day
And I fall down on what to say,
Oh something clean let me be clever
(Now there must be something wrong when I've got more to talk about with my friends than what I've got to talk about with you. But I always tried. But the more I tried the less I had to say. And when words failed so did we.)
Hey oh well whatever
But that's not what I mean
Where we've been has left us burned
Still I won't turn now from a fight
You know I'll never win
(You once told me, in the event that we fought, to just ignore what you said and never to argue with you because ultimately I would be the one getting hurt. And that when you've cooled down you'd be able put yourself in my shoes and think about the matter in a rational way. But we never had the chance to fight.)
So when I see you, you know all the things I've done
Well I'm blinded
Like I'm staring down the sun
When I see you when I see you when I see you
It's like I'm staring down the sun
I'm blinded
(The times I watched you on the basketball court. You were in your element and you practically shone. At least I saw you shine. And now your face is still inked in my mind.)
Time passes and it tells us what we're left with
We become the things we do
(I was eaten by insecurities, but they were justified in the end. I saw it as a sign.)
Me I'm a fool, spent from defiance, yeah you got me but
I didn't give up on you
(There were times when I contemplated if I was doing the right thing. Maybe we should have waited longer before getting together. But it's okay, we tried right? It's all about feel.)
Icarus is not a tee shirt or a swan song, no
He is born again and it's not easy being me
(Heartily know, when half-gods go, the gods arrive. - Emerson)
But I can't promise I will mend or bend
When you believe that we are fixed now from our birth
And I've just fallen back to earth
Still you know I'll try again
(I take it as a consolation that we weren't very deep in love because the fall was then not as hard. And it appears now that even if there was a slightest chance that we'd get back together for some reason I wouldn't want that, but if I could turn back time I would definitely choose the path that I had chosen then, and get together with you all over again even if we had to break up ultimately.)
Cause I believe that
We are lucky
We are golden
We're stolen manners
In the days when we were one
(You made me see things the way I 'd never been able to before.)
So when I see you, despite all that we've become
I'm still blinded
But I'm still staring down the sun
When I see you when I see you when I see you
I'm still staring down the sun I'm still staring down the sun I'm still staring down the sun
I'm blinded
(There is no blame. I still miss you and think of you constantly, but hey think on the bright side, it hasn't even been one month since we ended. Give me more time alright?)
Heartily know, when half-gods go, the gods arrive.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Honey Bunny
It would have been our third month today if we were still together.
Together; (definition taken from Dictionary.com)
1. into or in one gathering, company, mass, place, or body: to call the people together.
2. into or in union, proximity, contact, or collision, as two or more things: to sew things together.
3. into or in relationship, association, business, or agreement, etc., as two or more persons: to bring strangers together.
4. taken or considered collectively or conjointly: This one cost more than all the others together.
5. (of a single thing) into or in a condition of unity, compactness, or coherence: to squeeze a thing together; The argument does not hold together well.
6. at the same time; simultaneously: You cannot have both together.
7. without intermission or interruption; continuously; uninterruptedly: for days together.
8. in cooperation; with united action; conjointly: to undertake a task together.
9. with mutual action; mutually; reciprocally: to confer together; to multiply two numbers together.
It takes two. We were together for eighty-one days.
It takes two to be one.
The walking epitome of emptiness. I'm hollow inside. It's an inexplicable feeling. I can't say it's sadness, neither is it depression.
The closest word would be lethargy.
I need to go back to reading to watching to listening to laughing to smiling to going to thinking (not of bad things of course silly) to being to befriending to just being to just being to just being me.
I'm not me when there's him. I'm still not me when he's not there.
He graduates from Basic Military Training tomorrow if I didn't remember wrongly. I need to live past this period of time with dates of what we have planned previously. Time is what I need. Because everything I see still reminds me of us. I dread going home each time I'm out. I dread seeing the void deck of my block of flats, I dread walking through the corridor, I dread taking buses, trains, dread seeing motorbicycles, I dread remembering, because then the unsettling lethargy just sets in. It simply sets in, it attacks me from within until it reaches the layer beneath the skin, and it seeps out from the pores, the way poisonous gases always seem to be able to permeate through cracks in the walls, and the lethargy hangs around for a large part of time and I find that I am totally ruined by it.
I know I will get past this in due time. I love my friends! :D And I love retail therapy! :)
Together; (definition taken from Dictionary.com)
1. into or in one gathering, company, mass, place, or body: to call the people together.
2. into or in union, proximity, contact, or collision, as two or more things: to sew things together.
3. into or in relationship, association, business, or agreement, etc., as two or more persons: to bring strangers together.
4. taken or considered collectively or conjointly: This one cost more than all the others together.
5. (of a single thing) into or in a condition of unity, compactness, or coherence: to squeeze a thing together; The argument does not hold together well.
6. at the same time; simultaneously: You cannot have both together.
7. without intermission or interruption; continuously; uninterruptedly: for days together.
8. in cooperation; with united action; conjointly: to undertake a task together.
9. with mutual action; mutually; reciprocally: to confer together; to multiply two numbers together.
It takes two. We were together for eighty-one days.
It takes two to be one.
The walking epitome of emptiness. I'm hollow inside. It's an inexplicable feeling. I can't say it's sadness, neither is it depression.
The closest word would be lethargy.
I need to go back to reading to watching to listening to laughing to smiling to going to thinking (not of bad things of course silly) to being to befriending to just being to just being to just being me.
I'm not me when there's him. I'm still not me when he's not there.
He graduates from Basic Military Training tomorrow if I didn't remember wrongly. I need to live past this period of time with dates of what we have planned previously. Time is what I need. Because everything I see still reminds me of us. I dread going home each time I'm out. I dread seeing the void deck of my block of flats, I dread walking through the corridor, I dread taking buses, trains, dread seeing motorbicycles, I dread remembering, because then the unsettling lethargy just sets in. It simply sets in, it attacks me from within until it reaches the layer beneath the skin, and it seeps out from the pores, the way poisonous gases always seem to be able to permeate through cracks in the walls, and the lethargy hangs around for a large part of time and I find that I am totally ruined by it.
I know I will get past this in due time. I love my friends! :D And I love retail therapy! :)
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